They say it makes the heart grow fonder.
My absence has been for good reason though, so let me try to quickly share.
As some of you know, about 2 1/2 years ago, we became foster parents. We had two sisters, ages 4 & 6 for about a month before they went on to live with another family. There were many emotions wrapped up in a small package and after the experience we put foster parenting on hold and eventually turned in our license. We had set a goal to move to our own little homestead for a life of more self-sufficiency and discussed the possibility of getting back into foster care once we were on the farm.
Fast forward 2 years and we aren’t on that farm nor do we know when that might happen. We’ve put many things on hold while we have been waiting to make that dream our reality, including foster care so for many personal reasons, we decided to reinstate our foster care license. Our reinstatement was quick and we got our license in the mail about 1 1/2 weeks ago with the expectation that we wouldn’t get a call until after our late summer/early fall trip. Imagine my surprise when our licensing worker called late Thursday afternoon about two brothers, ages 7 months and 3 years, who were sitting in the Department of Children and Family Services office and in need of a home. So many things went thru my mind in a matter of seconds, including the fact that hubby was out-of-town on business and wouldn’t return until Saturday night. Then I said, “We’ll take them” and our life has been full of craziness ever since. Not that our life wasn’t crazy before, but taking in two little guys who have been thru so much in such a short period of time adds an element of craziness that is difficult to explain.
As expected, we have had some challenging moments – A 3-yr-old with big feelings that have come out in some tough behaviors and a baby, who I now know is almost 9 months old, and who doesn’t feel comfortable enough to fall asleep (he only slept about 6 hours during the first 24 hours here and hasn’t improved a lot since then). But we’ve also had some very enjoyable moments like watching Naomi and the 3-yr-old (who I’ll call TT) laugh and play together. Or seeing the baby (who I’ll call TK) finally smile and belly laugh. Although some of the most enjoyable moments have been watching Lili care for TK. It’s the first time she’s spent this much time with a baby and she has been so gentle and nurturing. She got the first smile from TK and he lights up when she walks in the room.
I know we have many more tough moments ahead of us, but I also know that we’ll have many more enjoyable moments ahead as well. We just have to ride the waves and do the best we can.
Longer periods of absence here seem inevitable right now. Please know it’s not that I have forgotten about my little blog and it’s not that we’re put our homesteading dreams aside. While we’re waiting and hoping for our homestead goal to fall in place, we’ve accepted a very important role as caregiver for two cute little boys who need our love, nurturing and family right now.
I hope you’ll check in from time-to-time and I’ll do my best to update any chance I get.